emptiness

now playing: worlds apart / jars of clay

I tell you what. Sometimes, when one is agrivated, empty, and lacking, it sucks. That's where I'm at. Peace.


empty

this and that

now playing: A Few Good Men // tom cruise, demi moore

Did you know that in Japan, 47% of men, aged 21-25, are looking for wives. Only 29% of women in that same age bracket are available. Useless information, you say? Indeed, but published useless information. I read it, and now I've shared it. Just spreading the wealth, folks. :-)

So, work is going good, Mom and dad officially sealed the deal for the house, which is wicked. Pretty excited about that. About now, it's bed time, and I'm going to go. Y'all take care, and keep on keepin' on.
andymack

good thing I don't live in Japan.

contentment

now playing: God's Drum Show / Thundershowers. No, that's not the name of a band

i have to say, I have been to three beautiful weddings this summer (looking forward to one more), and I've learned a lot. This post is a tribute to my friends... you have taught me that contentment is being patient with God's timing, and not wasting time when He makes things clear. You've taught me that the best really is worth waiting for. And you've taught me (by comparison with my own experience) that anything less than the best isn't worth the time. So, to my married friends: I envy what you have found. To my future wife, I'm waiting for ya, and I'll do my best not to get tripped over the wrong one. Contentment. Learn it. P.K. once said that, and he was never far off mark. Talk to you guys again soon.

_________ andymack
oh yeah, to my future wife again, if a sweater with an obvious slogan, like "AndyMack, I'm your wife" is possible, it'd be greatly appreciated.

all i want is a place where I can hang out with my friends

now playing: wash / satellite soul

possibly one of the coolest albums ever as far as Christian Folk Rock goes... rockier than CC, and lyrically rad-iculous, too.

I commented today at lunch that durin allergy season I know what heroin addicts feel like: always living for their next fix. That's how I feel about my antihistamines. Mostly cause my eyes never get un-scratchy. And I want them too. Poor me. I guess I'll have to get a new tail. I coulda been eyeore. He's the man. Alright, I'm gone. Eyes closing uncontrolably.

coming soon... adventures of coffee ranger

in the time that it would take... i'll be another mile gone

now playing: not the land / caedmon's call

Yet another plea for the masses to start listening to caedmon. Caedmon rocks. Kinda like molson, only different, cause I've never experienced molson, whilest I have experienced caedmon. Yay Caedmon.
It was a good day at work today, I love having stuff to do all day. And I even enjoy having laid back evenings. Although, i am looking forward to a trip to the P-dilly-o this weekend. Mack in the house. Work is good, life is treating me well, and I really have little else to say, but wanted to say something. It is tragic when one speaks without having anything to say. So, I apologize, and bid you adieu.
go go power rangers

bookshelves and nephews

now playing: who am i? / casting crowns

Matt + Ruth = Married. Married = matt + ruth. Married / matt = ruth? Way to go guys, I'm proud of you. To the rest of you, the ceremony was beautiful, the bride was gorgeous. Heck, Matt even looked pretty good. Although, i have seen him look better... right matt? ;-) hehehe

Outside of that, it was a grand weekend. I got to see my nephews, who provide a consistent ego boost - they think I'm a superhero, and when I'm around them, sometimes I start to think that I might actually be one. On top of that, i bought a six foot hight, five shelf bookshelf. I like bookshelves. I can't wait to get it filled. YES! Anyway, that about covers it for me. Late nights, early mornings = no weekend. But its all good, the cause was worthy, and one of my boys is hitched.... *bom bom bom* and another one bites the dust.
space ranger mackay! Andrew

the times, my friend, they are a changin'.

now playing: all i know / caedmon's call... so smooth

Maybe I'm on my way to find you, or maybe I'm about to write the blog of my life. Man guys, life moves pretty fast. You gotta stop and look for it every once in a while, or you just might miss it. Ferris Bueller said that. And he wasn't dumb. Okay, that's debatable, either way, the validity of the statement stands.

So, tomorrow I drive to St. Kitts for Cookster's Wedding How exciting is that? I think everyone should listen to Caedmon's Call more, so that I can make more inside jokes. IE, wanting marriage like a hole in my head, needing it like a meal in bed. But, since none of you listen to CC, it sounds like desperation, instead of playing like a joke. Oh well.

So, I'm in the B-diggity, having moved away from my beloved Island home, and my crummy telecommunications job (it wasn't that bad, but the new job is better). It's kinda weird to leave your support system all behind. I do it far more frequently than I'd like. I think I shall try to avoid moving for a while. Although I suppose once every four or five years isn't that bad. Anyway, I am here, and here is where I live so I guess that means the carrot's gonna dangle, for at least another year. See, another CC reference. And you all sitting there going "WHAT?" Alright, i gotta go to bed. Cook and the Kitt, or bust. Keep on rockin' in the blog world (yep, yet another caedm... wait, no... neil young never did play with caedmon's call, did he? But, imagine if he did... aw yeah). G'night New York!

__________andymack

big changes

now playing: all the reasons why / downhere with not martel singing lead. cause when martel sings lead, i get annoyed. don't know why.

So, here's an update for bloggerdom. I'm currently in belleville for a job interview tomorrow morning with a custom publishing / media firm. I wouldn't have thought that I'd be here even up to 4 days ago, but here I am. This could mean some huge changes - from place of residence, to job description, to school plans in the short term (the long term would remain pretty well the same). But, I'm really pretty content with the idea. As much as I'd miss the ptbros, the opportunity would be simply phenomenal. We're talking a career move. Anyway, your prayers are appreciated. Not that I would rock the house, or get what I want, but that God's will would be manifest. That's all I need. Mack out.
Lord help me be the one You're making me.

now playing: Portrait of an Apology / jars

a post from cook
Now, don't get me wrong. I love cookster. But I have to disagree with him on this one. Certainly our favorites may shift slightly based on mood, but there are certain things that one can always return to. For example, my favorite movie will almost always return to braveheart or that thing you do. My favorite song: as long as I'm not married, it'll probably be Table for Two by Caedmon's Call, cause it describes my life. My favorite food: Lasagna, no matter how many days I eat it in a row. Even the cheap no name stuff. I know... sick, but true. Anyway, it is possible to have favorites. Now, if you catch me at the right time, I might say something else based on mood. I.E. movie / romantic mood / sabrina (harrison and julia). Song / Angry / Crazy Times. But, those variances don't disprove the rule. Anyway, always up for disagreeing with Cook. He's my favorite! ;-)
Alright... work is early tomorrow. I'll catch you guys later!
does this kid ever have anything to say?

opportunity knocks

now playing: world's apart / joc live

You know how sometimes you crack a joke about something that would be a dream... absolutely impossible. And then a week later, the very opportunity you cracked a joke about falls into your lap? Yeah. wild. Crazy when that happens. How to respond? Lord, let me in on this!

race cars

now playing: something on the belleville Christian station

So, I'm in Belleville. For probably another 2 and a half hours, then it's back to peterborough. I have a test assignment for the same publishing company my mom works for, so hopefully that'll go well. It's been a productive 2 days mentally and physically, and has given me time for spiritual contemplation.

So, as I raced up the 401, I was thinking about the life of fits and starts we all tend to live. (I think most guys have a thing for car analogies...) On the road of life, there are those who -- much like a long haul trucker -- go strong and steady. On the other hand, there are those who -- much like a drag racer -- fly along the road for 5.6 seconds, and then fizzle out thanks to the parachute they're dragging. Sadly, I think most of us are characterized by the latter How awesome would it be if we could all be consistent and sincere? That's my hope and prayer for our generation. Keep it real guys.
*car noises* briiiiiiiiiingdingdingdingding /end car noises

where ya been so long

now playing: corrina, corrina - bob dylan (YEAH!)

It's hard to go wrong, when one is listening to Bob Dylan sing classics. And contemplating God's goodness. I've decided that it's a good thing that God's character is the universal constant. I think i've spent a while trying to figure things out that might be constant. In fact, it's possible that many - nay most - futile pursuits can be boiled down to the pursuit of consistency. We'd all like to be able to depend on things, people, relationships, whatever. God's character doesn't change. You can bank on it. It's a sure bet.
also, bob dylan really does rock my face off.
he made it, why can't we?

now playing: closure / believing didymus

don't go looking for it, cause there's only like 30 odd copies of "puddlejumping" out there... it'll be gold if the guys from BD ever make it big. ;-) Here's one of my favorites though, for your contemplative enjoyment

how can I get closure on a never opened issue?
how can I cry when I should not have cared?
how can i feel stabbed when no knife ever existed?
why does life go this way?

___I just want to curl into Your arms
___And let the tears flow
___Even though I don't understand
___You reign here below
___And when I just cannot see
___I know Your plan will show
___cause Your love sustains me
___And You are good.

why is it always that my heart commits perjury?
and it seems like I am out, out to get me
was it something that I did, or was it in God's plan?
why is it that I never seem to understand?

(chorus)

Your ways are always higher than what I comprehend
Your love is deeper than the Marianas trench
and when I feel despair, I know You're faithful
You are the Holy God, the Rock unshakeable

(chorus)

sometimes a song transcends a situation, and becomes an encouragement, no matter what's going on. That's what "closure" has become. Ironically, the theme from deliverance does just about the same thing. ;-) Alright guys, rock and roll, I hope this moment from the past was as encouraging for you as it was for me!
andymack, signin' out.
andymack and the mack is back no slack

RC Sproul

now playing: God is great / sonic flood. still my theme song

Okay, so I'm pretty sure that R.C. is a net junkie or something. Here's why. When he was talking about philosophy, he was like: these philosophy teachers will pretty well do or say whatever they want, and as long as they do it in a hushed tone, everyone's like: wow, that's profound! So, that came to mind today as I did some reading amongst writers of my generation. Sure, we may not lower our voices (mostly because we're too lazy to figure out how to program that in HTML, or in PHPBBCode, or whatever), but often times we seem to have a desire to come across as being profound. So, we find big ways to say nothing at all. I'm definitely pointing the finger at myself, because the more I contemplate it, the more I see it. So, my challenge to myself is to learn to shut up except for when I can actually say something that matters. Anyway, for now, I'm gonna go watch a movie and do a development plan for work. Not that it'll matter, cause I'll probably be leaving there shortly anyway, but it's all good. Peace Out...side


wahoo... job change!

planning big

now playing: zach's song // school of rock (AWW YEAH!)

Hey kids, mack here. I just wanted to say, real quick: don't be afraid to think big, and plan big. We're such an apathetic lazy generation. Make loving God your number one priority, then... plan big, be bold, and obey Him. rad - iculous
mack out.
I'm gonna bust a guitar solo right there, if it's cool with you.

God is Great

now playing: God is great. hillsong version. love the song, hate the production.

God's goodness is a mighty powerful thing. Sometimes I'm so dumb as to forget it. and it's when things snap back into place at the end of a phase like that where i realize that I'm really just that dumb. Oh well, it's all good - a good lesson learned every little while is well worth a couple o' smacks upside the head with the celestial two by four -- it's big

Word. So, in other news... not much else going on actually. Work and sleep and sleep and work. And the occasional exercise. And ice cream outings today. Anyway, God is good. That's the one thing I know. And it's the only thing worth depending on. lucy: is he a safe lion? mrs. beaver (i think): oh no dear, he's not safe... didn't you hear what i said? he's a lion. but he's good!


lion of judah!

the blog about nothing

now playing: nobody loves me / dwebb | not a sympathy song, a song about speaking the truth, no matter what

Okay, so here's the question... how did those sienfeld punks pull off "the sitcom about nothing"? Cause honestly... when I don't have a topic, I'm just absolutely ridiculous when trying to write. How do you write anything without a topic? It's not even possible. Perhaps they were just random. Like duck burgers. Or flying washing machines. or something. Mmm duck burgers. So I guess I should be kinda depressed, since I haven't had any deep thoughts on my mind of late. pathetic, I know, but such is life. Keep it real folks, and I'll try to do the same.


before the shoe was, andymack is.

every new beginning

comes from some other beginning's end. now playing: closing time / semisonic

One reaches the end of the year, and looks back and wonders. "What if". The what ifs get me nowhere, so I'm going to stop what-iffing and just appreciate everything that you KLBC folk did to make the year as good as it was, and thank God that He's got even better in store for all of us. Carpe Diem guys... live every moment to the full, because every moment matters and every minute counts.

Oh yeah, also, I got to jam with Todder tonight... hokey shmokes... I love his writing, and i love the fact that we learned each other's stuff in about 10 minutes, and then had a blast sharing it with people. Definitely something to pursue. If there was ever a time to rock, now is that time.
God is Great. Keep on rockin.
8 months off... AMEN!

free

now playing: just don't want coffee - derek

To that which went before: all the best. I am complete. To the one who lies ahead, probably far ahead, I'll do my best to grow up and to be worth while. To the One who makes it all make sense: Thanks. You are good... and tho "I am weak, You are strong. I know my pain won't be ignored... i have found the greatest cure is being weak in the Lord." (from a song by Sam Smith). God is good folks.

and I think I'm back. If there was ever a time to rock, now's the time to do it . So lets rock.
God gave rock and roll to ya!

why aren't His words teaching?

now playing: if we are the body // casting crowns

So, today was the first choir trip that I've gotten to go on this year - like bus rides and all (I did get to go catch them in bancroft one time... and the company was rad too). Anyway, the easter conference was a little ridiculous to be honest. I wonder what paul would say if he saw the level of teaching we have in the church today. I think he might say "I'm going home, y'all are pathetic", and walk out. Or maybe "And I thought the Galatians were cause for worry" (which is the polite greek way of saying "dumb"). I dunno, i think beg to be spoonfed all the time instead of ever wanting a real challenge. I'm sorry, but it is not a challenge to people to tell them that they "need to get back to the gospel". It's not a challenge because there's no telling what that looks like, or what difference it would make. It leaves everyone with warm fuzzies, and we think: "look at how I spent my good friday. Yep, I'm doing pretty good." And then we go on living life the exact same way as we always did. Disugsting guys. Digusting. Sorry, I don't mean to vent, but i've gotta wonder: when are we ever going to move past being asinine into being applicable? Alright, i'm done.

asinine: adj., utterly stupid or silly: asinine behavior.
Of, relating to, or resembling an ass.